When I went through a painful break up in March of this year, I felt as if my whole body was engulfed in grief. Emotionally, I felt intense sadness and hopelessness. Mentally, I thought that I would never truly be happy again. Physically, I experienced the sensation that there was a huge rock sitting in the middle of my chest, making it difficult to breathe and even to speak. I felt that way for weeks, until I got a phone call from a dear friend who was going through a similar experience at the same time.
“Hey Flo”, she said, “You have to go see my energy healer, Barb. She is fantastic. I went in to see her feeling like crap and came out after one session like I was walking on air!”
I did not doubt the effectiveness of energy healers, as I have seen several over the years for relief from anxiety and to help balance my emotional state. I myself, am in fact trained in a form of energy healing called Reiki, which I administered to myself on a daily basis while going through cancer treatments. However, even though I had trust in this form of healing of the emotional body, I was very skeptical that anything could help relieve my anguish at that time! But I was willing to give it a try.
There are many forms of energy healing, but they all involve bringing balance to our life force energy, also known as “ki”, “chi” or “prana”. When this energy is flowing smoothly, we feel a sense of wellness and peace. However, when we experiences blockages in this field, it causes emotional and mental distress, sometimes followed by physical ailments. In my case the break- up had caused a blockage in my energy field, leaving a big ball of grief stuck right in the middle of my emotional body, so intense that I could physically feel it.
While Reiki is a hands on practice used to move this energy through the body and remove blockages, the type of healing that Barb practices, “Reconnective Healing”, is for the most part, hands off. The hands hover above the body, but within the energy field of the person. Some people are more in tune with this energy field than others. Try this test, close your eyes and slowly bring your hands together, palms facing each other, and then move them slowly from side to side. Can you feel a change in the energy as your hands get closer? It might feel like a tingling, a heat, or a slight resistance. That is your energy field. This energy can be manipulated either by direct hands on methods, or with the hands not touching the body but remaining in the energy field.
As soon as I walked into Barb’s room, I could sense the spiritual energy. The very setting itself made me feel comfortable and calm. I chatted a bit with Barb about what was happening in my life, and then lay on the table for my treatment. The first thing I noticed as I lay there with my eyes closed, was the sense of relaxation that came over me almost immediately. Soon after, I felt the warm pressure of hands at various places on my body. I thought, “WTF? How can her hands be on my head and my feet at the same time?” I opened my eyes a crack to find Barb standing at my head with her hands hovering above my forehead. So although I felt the sensation of hands on my body, they weren’t Barb’s hands! Many people who have had energy healings report a similar sensation of feeling hands on their body.
To my surprise, and delight, I left my one hour session feeling as light as a feather! I could not believe the difference from just one session. The weight was gone from my chest and I was not only smiling, but also singing as I was driving home. I could not wait to call my friend and share my experience with her.
“Don’t get too excited yet”, she responded, “It wears off after a day or two.”
I don’t know if it was the power of suggestion, but sure enough, after a couple of days, that ugly, heavy feeling was back again. So I booked another session with Barb for the following week, and I continued to see her once a week for 6 weeks. Each time, the feeling of lightness lasted a little longer, and by the end of the six weeks, I felt that the grief had moved through my body and I was healed on an emotional level.
In 2014, I attended a fabulous yoga retreat at Kripalu, with my favorite cousin, Lil. After several days of clean eating, yoga, meditation, and hikes in nature, I joked with Lil, “Oh my GAWD! I have not felt this good since I had cancer!” The truth is, it is usually only when I am going through one of my many emotional crises that I really commit myself to a dedicated spiritual practice of self-reiki, prayer and meditation. So ironically, I tend to feel at my emotional/mental best when I am going through these difficult times because it prompts me to devote more energy to my spiritual well-being. Well, just last week I had a thought. Why wait until I am in crisis mode to pamper my spirit? So I brushed the dust off my rosary beads, unrolled my yoga mat and began to administer reiki to myself each night. The result? I feel like a million bucks! I can actually feel the spiritual energy around me and something is moving in my life that has been stuck for about four years. That is another topic for another blog post….but so many synchronicities and so called “coincidences” are happening that it is laugh out loud funny. The universe is definitely conspiring to bring about a much needed change in one area of my life.
The wonderful thing about Reiki is that by giving it to others, I allow it to flow through my body. So by giving Reiki, I am also getting Reiki. Actually the healing energy does not come FROM me, but I act as a channel and it flows THROUGH me. Usually this energy is very subtle, and I feel it as a tingling, a pulsing or warmth in my hands. However, I have had a few more powerful experiences with this energy. I was once giving a treatment to my daughter, Kaitlyn, and when I placed my hands on her chest, I felt a strong vibration, almost like an electric current, pass down my arms and out through my palms. At the same time, Kaitlyn giggled. Not wanting to interrupt the flow of energy, I kept going with the session for another half hour. At the end, I asked why she laughed and she told me that when my hands were on her chest, she felt waves of energy pulsating into her body. Coincidence? I think not!
As part of my spiritual practice, not only am I giving self-Reiki, but I have also decided to offer Reiki treatments in my private counselling practice. If you live on the Burin Peninsula, and you would like to learn more about Reiki or book a session (it is covered by most insurance companies), send me an email: firstname.lastname@example.org (not dot com!) or Facebook message me.