Say A Prayer

Today I will not talk about the perks of having cancer.  Instead  I ask that you stop and say a prayer for those who lives are affected by the disease.

When I was first diagnosed with breast cancer, I sought out others living in my area who were also fighting this disease.   We compared our stories and offered each other hope.  It’s been just over a year since cancer came into my life and I feel as if I am standing in the middle of a battle field.  First I saw Michelle fall, then Hester, and just two days ago, Sandy.  Sandy was a colleague of mine who was dignosed just weeks after me, also with stage 3 breast cancer.

In a way, I feel guilty, I suppose in the same way that a soldier feels guilty as he looks around the battle field and sees his fallen comrades and wonders, “Why was I spared?”  Was it luck?  Fate?  Destiny?   I guess it is not for us to know in this lifetime.  Rest in peace, my friends.

13 thoughts on “Say A Prayer

  1. Florence
    I will indeed offer those prayers.
    All of those feelings you name here are valid emotions and an important part of your journey. I will pray today for those taken by cancer — and for those surviving the disease while saying farewell to comrades they have lost in the battle.
    Peace to you

  2. My dearest, sweetest thoughts and prayers go out to you. You have picked up on the survivor’s guilt. I don’t know how you work through it. My husband was in Vietnam in a non-combat/computer operator/support position. It took him five years to go down to DC to see the Vietnam Memorial, for the same reason – why them? why not me? There’s no explaining it. It just is. All you can do is the best you can. Thanks for sharing the journey.

  3. Florence, such a touching commentary. God Bless you 🙂 As the previous commentator stated, we are still here because our work is not yet done . My thoughts and prayers go out to your fallen friends, and of course to you 🙂
    Happy Mother’s Day to you on Sunday !

  4. My heart goes out to you, as this is when reality hits you on how awful this disease can be. I have grade 3 and had my second course of chemo yesterday, so i will pray for those that have been taken by cancer and those that are fighting cancer god bless sharon.

  5. Thanks for your poignant posting. I believe this is part of our journey, and those who have already passed over have a different journey. These are extremely challenging lessons for everyone involved with cancer, and indeed I agree for those of us still physically present, that our work (whatever form it may take) has to go on.
    I found the book “Healing Illness and Karma” by Avishay Gershony answered many of my questions.
    Sending you courage, love and compassion today. Christina Hatt

  6. I think that everything happens for a reason whether it seems positive or negative. No doubt prayers send a good vibe. Writing a post like this is just as helpful!

  7. Florence, everything in life happens for a reason. I too feel bad for the families of these women. Sandy’s recent passing was a shock. It’s all in God’s hands and he must have more important things for her to do.

  8. Praying with you. I’ve lost count of the number of people in my “circle of influence” (or someone they love) who have been diagnosed with cancer since I was last year. Many with more aggressive, less optimistic forms of cancer than mine. And like you, I wonder why I am ok and they are not. It’s an uncomfortable place to live – balancing the gratitude with the guilt. I am terribly sorry for your loss.

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