Happy Wednesday! In keeping with my schedule of featuring one of my favourite bloggers each Wednesday, it is my pleasure today to introduce you to Shanna.
Shanna is a cancer “thriver” who blogs about healing holistically. She is a Spirit Junkie, vegetarian, animal lover, Buffy the Vampire Slayer fanatic, and book lover (check out her blogs Enlightened by Books and Radical Self Love Goddess). You can also read about her healing journey at Existing’s Tricky.
“When it’s dark and I’m all alone, and I’m scared and freaking out or whatever, I always think ‘What would Buffy do?’…you’re my hero.” Xander Harris ‘Buffy the Vampire Slayer’
“These little earthquakes, doesn’t take much to rip us into pieces…Give me life, give me pain, give me myself again.” Tori Amos ‘Little Earthquakes’
“existing’s tricky: but to live’s a gift.” e e cummings
Cancer is not a Dirty Word
by Shanna Sandmoen
Cancer is not a curse or a punishment. It isn’t designed to hurt us, it’s designed to wake us up. We stopped listening to our bodies, we pushed our emotions down and where Spirit should be sitting, our Ego has taken the driver’s seat. Cancer is a wake up call; you either make some changes, or you die.
Prior to being diagnosed with cancer I was severely depressed, suicidal, a cutter, and just wanted out of this life. I begged the Universe to take me from this world. Two months later I was diagnosed with cancer. I celebrated! Who would blame me if I died from cancer? Suicides are selfish and leave an incredible hole, but cancer, that’s different.
It spread quickly after that, and if I had allowed it, it would have been only a matter of months before it took me. Then one day I talked to my Dad, and he just lost control and started crying uncontrollably, to the point where he had to hang up the phone. In 25 years I’d seen my Dad cry only once; and that was when we put the family dog down. The man doesn’t cry or show that kind of emotion, and it hit me hard. I realized that my intentions were selfish. In the grand scheme of things, had I given this life thing the benefit of the doubt?
So I decided to live. I went on a vegan raw food diet; visited many energy healers, including Ressonance Repatterning, EFT, Reiki, The Reconnection, and others. I found a Naturopath to work with; took a ton of supplements; did colonics and Vitamin C drips; you name it. Over the past eight years my body has done a lot of healing. Things go up and down sometimes, but that is really because of me. I would say that I am happy today. I have many things to enjoy: friendships, blogging, getting creative, going to the park, hugging my dog, yoga, etc. Currently, I recognize that it is Spirit that needs the work, and as my Spirit continues to heal, I believe that my body will as well.
Happiness is a choice. It’s all in how we perceive things. I chose to perceive life as a gift and cancer as my teacher. When things go wrong, I figure out how I’m sabotaging myself, and then do some Spiritual healing. I have my mentors: Gabby Bernstein, Danielle La Porte, Gala Darling, Goddess Leone, Marci Shimoff, etc. who really help me get through the tough times. I smile at myself in the mirror every morning, and if the going gets tough, I take a deep breath, do some gratitudes, and realize that everything will be okay.
My goal is to heal myself holistically and prove that the health of the mind/body/spirit is essential to a joyous life. I choose to be an inspiration to myself and to others who might be struggling with the “perks of cancer”. I am grateful for the opportunity to share my story, and I look forward to being completely healed. It took cancer to make me appreciate life.